When did I become so cynical about love? That was the question I asked myself while listening to a song I loved from 1987. The song is “The Border” by Mr. Mister. Every time I hear this song, I think of a couple who has been through a few things in life and all there is to do is keep going. I see a couple very much in love holding hands as they face the next thing in life. I see a man who is there with his arms open wide waiting for the woman to embrace him.

The Border by Mr. Mister

I don’t have that in my life. I have never had that in my life. I cannot imagine meeting anyone with the courage and conviction I hear in the song. I don’t know anyone who would say “whatever happens, we can handle it together.” I don’t know if that says something about people today or if it is just the people I meet. I didn’t cry, but the thoughts the song brings up make me sad. It’s like I lost something along the way. I’m not even sure that I’m supposed to have it, but I feel the loss.

The next song that came up on my iPod was “End of the Innocence” by Don Henley from 1989. I smiled to myself as I listened to the words, which provide an explanation of the cynicism and loss.

End of the Innocence by Don Henley

I remember when… I also know about being poisoned by fairy tales. I am very familiar with the lawyers too. Now, if only I could release all of it, forget for awhile like he suggests in the song. While I might not trade experience for innocence, it might be nice to have moments when that experience is forgotten. I learned a term for this in literature classes, but I don’t remember it and cannot find it. I think I would like more than just fleeting moments. I can almost imagine the freedom that comes with meeting every person or experience without the past creeping in. Almost. I would like to have the experience of the thoughts of the past not appearing. Ah, to be fully present…in the present.

What I really love about both songs is the piano part. The piano notes are haunting behind both singers amazing vocals.

I’m ready to write on this blog again. I realized this morning that I didn’t think I had anything to say really. But as it turns out, I have plenty to write about. I keep struggling with this.

Well, I tried to log in this morning because I actually had something to write about–or at least thought of something. Then I couldn’t log in. I forgot my password, and I have spent the last couple of hours unsuccessfully logging in. So I decided perhaps I should upgrade Wordpress. I’m not sure that I like the new look, but the upgrade went without a hitch…other than not being able to log in. The upgrade didn’t fix the issue. So now that things are working again, expect me back.

It’s the day of the to-do list. I have created quite a list. More will be added as the day goes on. I finally got the first draft of my novel printed off so I can do some editing on paper and others can read it. I can’t believe that I’ve had requests to read it. It’s quite rough, but that doesn’t stop anyone. That would have been one of my to-dos today, but I took care of it yesterday.

Oh, I just noticed that I have reached 502 posts now. Wow!

I know. Lots of quizzes. I can’t possibly have an interesting enough life to post every day. At least I don’t think so.

Guys Think You’re Easy to Be With… But Not Easy

You’re definitely a flirt - and a good one. But you also know that you shouldn’t make a move on any cute guy who passes by. You save your seductive moves for someone who already knows the real you. That way, your sex appeal is just part of the whole package.

It’s a good thing I don’t actually make resolutions…

Your New Year’s Resolutions

1) Get a pet rooster 2) Eat more gummy bears 3) Travel to Switzerland 4) Study Latin 5) Get in shape with midget tossing

What Should Your New Year’s Resolution Be?

I signed up for Blog 365. I must have been insane when I did that. Now how am I going to fill 365 days of posts? I haven’t been very good at posting every day for the last six months. I’ll have to see how it goes after celebrating New Year’s.

I needed a quiz to tell me this?

You Are a Life Blogger!

Your blog is the story of your life - a living diary.If it happens, you blog it. And make it as entertaining as possible.

What Kind of Blogger Are You?

I thought this would be cuter. I am a life blogger, as if you can’t tell by reading. Although I haven’t written much about my life lately. The new year is coming–sooner than even I can get a handle on. More flogging  blogging to come. I promise to make it more entertaining than I have. It may be time to put that morass in my head on the blog. It worked for the novel. It certainly kept me entertained.

I added an iTunes widget to my sidebar. You have to scroll down…way down. It’s even interesting for me to see. It scrolls artists that I listen to and own. Even I can’t believe all the different names and different music.

You will have to let me know if it says anything about me.

Wow! A whole year of blogging. Not quite daily though. I restarted my blog a year ago today. I have a total of 390 posts. Then I was using Blogger with my own domain. I have been on Wordpress for more than 6 months now. I hardly remember when I changed over. What a pain! What a relief!