I’ve been a a little bit of a funk ever since the end of November. I suppose I could blame it on NaNoWriMo. I certainly have missed that creative burst that I had every day. It was exciting. I haven’t been so excited to visit my creation, but I will be doing that in January. I was taking the advice and letting it sit.

I’m currently missing the boyfriend who is away visiting family until Sunday. I have the pre-blues though. He’s here for a week and then gone for two. Off to China. For fun. I would have picked somewhere else for fun.

I keep wondering what I’m doing in the leadership program I started almost four months ago. I don’t want to do the work. I was doing better, but now I keep wondering if I’m in the “right” place–as if there is a “right” place to be. People keep asking me if I’m having fun. This program is not fun unless you love to deal with all of your crap coming up right in your face every single day. I’d rather be blind and ignorant–it’s easier. I’m sure I will like the other side, but I haven’t reached the other side yet.

Still need a job or some income. My visit to my bank account made that very clear. For any of you out there also looking, I hope it’s going better for you or will be better. May we all find jobs we love this year!

I’d rather just go back to bed and sleep. Seriously, I have been in sleep debt and lately I haven’t been sleeping well. My cats were fighting (not playiung