Again, I’m having ups and downs. The downs aren’t that down. It’s more like I have successes and failures. I’m doing something that I have never tried before and something I have no idea how to do. Every effort I make is really just an experiment. I don’t really know if what I’m doing will work. Sometimes it does. Sometimes it doesn’t.

I’m looking forward to the beginning of November to begin NaNoWriMo. This time I want to reach 50,000 words. Yes, I plan to do this as well as this other project that I’m involved in.

I will have to keep you posted, but so far, so good. At least it is not occurring to me to censor myself while in the middle of talking to someone. What you try to hide is revealed anyway. It takes a lot of effort to hide so much–to be that neurotic. I’m free! Right now I wonder how much more free I can be.

Ever had a goal so large that you had no idea how you would reach it? I set one of those jsut a few weeks ago. Now, it looks like I won’t reach that goal. Now I’m sitting in the disappointment. Right now, it is keeping me from getting much done or even wanting to get anything done. So now I am experiencing pressure to perform to my own standards. Standards I set–not based in reality or any semblance of reality. So now what? I am posting a pretty poster to perfectly express how I feel. Oh, and here’s a quote I found: “One’s best success comes after their greatest disappointments.” ~Henry Ward Beecher

I think that’s a bit optimistic. I think I will stick with the poster.

Today was a nice reprieve from the weekend. Quiet. Too bad there’s no mail. The holiday caught me off guard.

Now if people would just keep their word. Although I’m not perfect at it. I have a lot to get done this week, so it’s time I get back to it.

We’re having the most gorgeous weather here today. Nearly 80 degrees. I just love California.

I rarely talk about television shows here, unless it is to complain how trite they are. Anyone see “Pushing Daisies”? This is an amazingly clever and well-written show by Barry Sonnenfeld. I have to agree with Variety that is one of the best new shows on television. I also hope that it gets quite a following. I have found that any show I really love ends up canceled. This show is one of those that may not appeal to the masses. It certainly has a Tim Burton feel. Think of Burton’s Charlie and the Chocolate Factory for the setting. Vibrant, bright colors everywhere. A somewhat surreal feel to the action. Then there’s the odd premise of the guy who can bring people back to life if he touches them, but if he touches them again, they die. I loved this show. The dialogue is snappy. The jokes land just right. The cast is perfect. In case you missed the show, you can watch it on ABC.com.

I wish I had something more interesting to say today. I’m beginning to think that snarky is more interesting to most people than complimentary. Even though everyone loves a compliment–to themselves. It’s a national sport–maybe even a world sport–to cut people down. I have little interest in that anymore.

I spent the morning at the salon, which means my hair smells. I don’t particularly like the smells. I prefer the smells of the hair products I use–much less smelly. I don’t want to wash my hair–again–blow it dry–again. It also damages my hair, and at this point I can’t afford more damage to my hair.

The cats have been naughty while I was away. That’s what I get for being gone for 7 hours last night and then again all morning.  And those 7 hours were spent around a large group of people. Nothing sordid or demeaning going on in my life right now. Actually, I’m past that. I have no desire to have anything like that.

Try wrapping your brain around this one. I am trying to unravel mine back. What if matter wasn’t made up of atoms as we have been taught? That includes humans. New experimenets in physics around dark matter are leadng to new theories. Only one-fifth of matter is made up of atoms.
Howard Baer, Florida State University’s J.D. Kimel Professor of Physics, is studying dark matter. Dark matter is believed to exist in the form of tiny particles that do not interact with light. Great! We have particles in us and around us that have absolutely no interaction with light. So how do we know they exist? We don’t exactly. These little particles don’t emit or reflect electromagnetic radiation these dark matter particles haven’t been directly observed. So what we have is a theory (although research is on its way to prove the theory correct) that dark matter particles exist based on their gravitational effects on visible matter throughout the universe. One more puzzling phenomena for the physicists to ponder.

What I wonder is what does dark matter do? What is its purpose? Of course atoms are mostly space, but it sounds like there are things in that space. Doing what, though?

Well I’m quite upbeat for a Monday. I had a great call with a recruiter at a company about a position there. It sounds like a good fit, particularly in the culture. I also have the possibility of a date in the near future.  I realize that sounds odd but because he had to get off the phone right away, the when didn’t get worked out. Things are looking up around here!