I’m a bit sleepy today after a lack of sleep last night. No, nothing exciting to report there. Just couldn’t sleep. I did have another date last night though. I have been feeling some slight trepidation. Ok, not so slight. It’s a bit disconcerting to be really open about who I am and who I have been since I wonder why anyone would want to be around all of it. There’s a feeling of running away and running toward. I’ll have to let you know which direction wins. Right now, toward is winning.

I know I like to be in control or at least feel like I have some control over a situation. I realized last night while talking about swing dancing that I have no problem giving up that control on the dance floor. Now why I can’t elsewhere, I have no idea.