I must be the best actress ever when it comes to my own life. Out of the seminar on sex and intimacy, I have figured out how I act around sex. The role I play is the “good girl.” My weekend program even prooved that further. I said something to a couple of guys about how they must think that I’m a “good girl.” Their response: “But you are!” In talking about this in the group from the seminar, even the one single guy in the group agreed. Nothing could be further from the truth. I told the guys this weekend, “No, if you only knew…” It’s all just some silly morality that I’ve internalized about how to behave. Because I don’t agree with society, think differently and often do differently, I have learned to cover that up so I don’t get judged. Yet, I get judged anyway. Completely silly. I’m waiting for the par tof the seminar where we get some freedom from this pretend stuff.