After a three-week hiatus, I’m back to the sex and intimacy seminar. Why is it that just tryinig to talk about this stuff makes you crazy? It’s not that I can’t talk about it. Last night’s experience was that when I tried to talk about where I was, no one seemed to get it. Instead they tried to fix it. Perhaps I wasn’t clear, but every time I tried to be more clear, I got the same thing.

Even today, people around me seem weird. It’s like they lose their concentration. That’s the nice way to put it. I would say they lost their minds.

So after the seminar, I’m still sitting in seeing what I have done and who I have been with no where to go. I think that is coming, but I don’t like sitting in the mess. My thoughts about sex are so wrapped up in society’s mores. Not that I follow them. But boy are they right in my face. I have a feeling like I am going crazy. Caught in a circle that never stops–like a hamster. I don’t want to be like a hamster. How do I get off?

I have been looking closely at my schedule to see if I can carve out an hour or two to write in November. Maybe. Maybe not two hours every day, but weekends are mostly available. My goal is to write more than last year and to write characters that I don’t wish would die after three weeks. I seriously wanted to kill them off. I had a few creative ways for them all to die, but I didn’t kill them off because it would have ruined my word count. I really want to do this crazy writing deadline this year. I have to agree that a deadline is completely necessary or I will waste years of half-hearted attempts and just plain wasitng time thinking how great it would be to write a novel. Oh wait–I already have.

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Yes, it is almost that time again–time for novel writing month. I’m not sure if I will participate or not this year. I have so many other things going on. If I am going to write, I need to come up with a couple of ideas during October.  I didn’t complete 50,000 words last year. I don’t even think I reached 10,000. I spent a good portion of November sick. I think I would like to try writing a screenplay. I have no idea how to create one or how to format it.

I came across this site this morning. Who knew the “world” was so unhappy? I guess I shouldn’t be surprised. You can vote your mood. If the number of good mood votes out weigh the bad mood votes, then the world smiles. The daily number of votes varies, so be sure to put in your mood. I would like to see the world smile. If you’re a Mac lover, you can download it as a widget.

Here’s one answer…

(photo from “Shoot’Em Up”) 

Does anyone think about their impact on the world? I often wonder if anyone is actually doing anything to make an impact. I know…We all have bills to pay, ourselves and/or kids to feed and clothe. Those things can take up most of your time. Then there are hobbies. There’s also just plain wasting time thinking about everything that needs to get done, everything that hasn’t gotten done, everything that will never get done. It’s no wonder our dreams have been lost. The economy and current politics haven’t inspired people in a long time.

I am reminded of the line in “Grosse Pointe Blank”: Where are all the good men dead, in the heart or in the head? It doesn’t have to mean just males, although that was the context. I go about my daily business and see lots of “dead” people. When did it get to be such a larger number? Why? (My unanswerable question.)

Well today I’m far less stressed. I have been taking care of getting in touch with people who I have blown off–really. Not necessarily intentionally. But I had some people in my life put forth an invitation to call or to have lunch and just plain ignored it. Not very nice. I haven’t even been posting much here–not as much as I used to. And this is a medium to communicate with other bloggers. So I guess when it comes to keeping in touch, I’m often not present. Someone once told me that I’m an either/or person:  if I’m present I am, if I’m not–I’m not. There is no in between. That’s still true.

It seem slike it has been awhile since I last posted. Lots has happened. I have had little sleep. Unfortunately, it wasn’t incredibly exciting or even titillating. Another weekend seminar…more work. I’m off to catch up and maybe even catch up on some sleep. I have a really busy week ahead.

It appears that some glitch caused one of my dating profiles to disappear. I wish I had the time this weekend to fix it, but I don’t. Currently I’m hoping that it can be restored. I really don’t want to do it all over again. No answers to my questions from yesterday’s post. Perhaps no one has been by to read? I’m off for another weekend seminar. At least this one is local.

Yesterday I received an email about an audition. Now I’m just waiting to hear back about what time to show up. I have been doing a little research for this particular audition by asking everyone I know a few questions. I am asking them here as well. Feel free to leave answers in the comments–honest or silly.

1. What is hot about dating someone new?
2. What is not hot about dating someone new?

This is still my job hunting experience: